Nightswammel
Deep within myself I am beginning to realize a fundamental truth about the universe. But so far I have only received tiny glimpses of what lies under the surface of life. Moments are beginning to occur where my perceptions becomes of somewhat less relevance and gives space for something else to arise, something that seems vaguely familiar but are at the same time something completely alien to me.
First there is silence, everything loses its value. It is almost as if a space between my mind and the world takes place. The world starts to lose its name. And as I go deeper in to this realm my thoughts become of less relevance and I start to observe them from another view. It feels like as if a duality takes place, my attention seems to be drained from my thoughts and emotions onto something else. And here I am beginning to get conscious of an underlying current of peace and joy.
But here I can not linger, my mind dare not to. Fear arises in me. My thoughts and emotions become restless, almost as if they were threatened by losing my attention. And the longer I stay the more intensified this restless fear becomes and soon I have to give in and return by letting my thoughts and emotions reclaim my consciousness attention.
But why does this fear arise? Why do my thoughts and my emotions fear the loss of my attention? Perhaps my mind is occupied by a parasite that feeds and survives on my consciousness attention?
All of you know of what I’m taking. Or at least if you have ever tried to master the ancient art of mediation, because the essence of meditation is to free yourself from thought and emotion and to focus your attention into realm of the divinity or god.
But do not misunderstand me; I’m not trying to say that I have found god. But I do know what I have experienced in my explorations of consciousness. I have felt how I am able to change my perception of reality and how peace and joy have arisen as a result; feelings with a nature that I have never encountered before. Perhaps god does exist after all? I can not know for sure, but curiosity will drive me closer to the answer.
But what if all this is true? What if we all could rise above thought and become one with god and bring back order to the chaos that has spread all over this world? Perhaps you think that I am being naïve, or even perhaps a bit crazy? But you can not say that I am wrong when tell you this: True change comes from within and if we are ever to create a world based on the foundations of true love for all we need bring about a revolution that would change the way we receive and interpret the world, that is to say a revulotion in consciousness.
So before you put all this out of your mind try this one ting. Take a few minutes and try to listen to your thoughts without trying to control them. Just observe them like if they were not apart whom you of are. Do not judge them, just let them be. Do you see what happens? How your mind becomes restless and tries to reclaim your total attention? It does not want to stop, although if you practice this you will realize that your thoughts will lose its power.
